My scapegoat child symptoms

To be suspicious and distrustful
Easily scared and insecure, even though I know myself that it is good
Seeking validation, while I know myself that what I am doing is right
Constant restlessness in my entire being
Psychosomatic complaints such as persistent joint pain, stabbing and pricking sensations throughout my body (which I initially attributed to Trisomy X syndrome because no cause could be found)